Happy anniversary baby, got you on my mind.. ( posted on Facebook July 2, 2015)

Happy Anniversary Dennis. I have had this song on my mind all day. I’ve had you on my mind all day.
Today as I sat with you at your graveside I was reminded of all the things we shared in life and just how much I love you. As you know this would have been our 21st. I want to thank you for the lessons you have taught me. How to be strong, how to be generous and how to love big. You made me a better person.
For the first time in seven months I’m going to attempt to sleep in our bed. I’m going to curl up next to you, my husband ( your spirit} and hold you tight. I’m sure I’m going to cry myself to sleep knowing you truly aren’t t there. My heart is aching because I want to hold you so very badly, but reality is I can’t.
As I wrestled this out with God tonight i prayed and ask for the courage to even get in the bed, HE assured me that joy would come in the morning. In Matthew 5:4 it says. “Blessed are those who mourn, For they shall be comforted.” Thank you God for your promises.
Happy Anniversary Baby, got you on my mind….

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