The Pulling and the Airport
Today was like any other day. I got up and drove to Jackson to meet my kids to assist with choosing a chair for their new home. Afterwards they wanted to take me to lunch. WE had worked up an appetite… we were hungry from all the hunger games they were playing at miskelly’s. OMG you would have thought they were giving the store away. Truth was there was many great door prizes and free chocolate chip cookies. You can’t have a party without chocolate chip cookies right.. I just knew they were going to draw my name for the 12 pm $1,000 give away. I was like OH YEAH, I’m going to win this shopping spree. BUT truth is another lady won and she didn’t even act excited. It was a drum roll moment and she just came tip toeing through the crowd like she was there for a dental appointment. ha There is a point to this story so hang with me.
There is a heart wrenching point to this story. As we were leaving Miskellys my son says, “follow me”. I did. we pulled out and he turned onto Hwy. 80 and then made that left hand turn heading straight out to the airport . ( to get over to lakeland drive where the food was) The moment we turned I began to feel my body tense up, my mouth got dry and my heart began to race. There it was….. the exit ramp to the airport. I could see the roundabout and the long tree covered entrance to the departure curb. The very place i had dropped Dennis off and picked him up for 23 years. It was as if my car was PULLING ME. Pulling me towards the exit. It was overwhelming. I began to just cry my eyes out. I began to see his face that last trip we made. I saw him standing there telling me for the last time how much he loved me. It was the last place I saw him alive. I wanted to GO there. I thought, GOSH how many first can there still be. This one was so unexpected and overwhelming. It felt as if another little piece of my heart broke off today so I came home emotionally tired from the inside out. I knew I had to find comfort in HIS WORD. I found comfort in Psalms 31:3-4 it says “For You are my rock and my fortress; Therefore, for Your names’s sake, Lead me and guide me. Pull me out of the net which they have secretly laid for me, for YOU ARE MY STRENGTH. ” This net for me is the grief monster. He continues to raise his little head but GOD continues to HOLD ME with his RIGHT hand and lift me up. I have to believe that IN all this HE is guiding me, growing me and teaching me that HE IS ENOUGH. He is pulling me in alittle closer to HIM. Have you been pulled lately? Is there something that is chipping away at your heart? Allow HIM to PULL YOU IN……